Dear my Baby darling…
You’ve been with me for almost four months now !! Yippie…I meant to write this kind of thing looong before, at the first time I know that I have you inside me, but there were so much distraction darling….I resigned from my job and started continuing my master study ( hopefully someday you’ll do more than me :) ), I moved back to my parents’ house and so many things to catch up, baby darliing….but how I already have so muuuuch in my mind that I really wanna share with you…with my little baby darling!
Well, we still have about 5 months to go before I can see your beautiful smile and hear your loud cry..oh how exciting this waiting period.. cant wait to hold you in my arms, to hold those little hands, kiss those chubby cheeks…. :)
I write this so that you know how much I love you and hopefully someday you want to read this mellow yellow notes and maybe you can laugh at it (hiks….you must understand how mommy can be sooo mellow, happy and excited at the same time when you’re inside me).
Baby darling, till now i dont know you’ll turn to be a handsome brave boy or a beautiful cute girl..Doctor said that we can know by next month, on our next visit. Mommy is still thinking whether to keep it secret or to blow it up hihihi….but however, both ways will such an amazing journey for me and your Ayah. Both ways will be as much enjoyable, as much exciting…our pray for you is that you’ll be born healthy and perfect baby….and turn to be a sholeh/a child, and be the apple of our eyes :)
Oh ya, your doctor (well..more my doctor actually hehe) is dr. Susan Melinda, SP.OG… i do think she’s great…i only visited her around 3 times till now…but she’s kind of a funky doctor hehe..she considers about aesthetic things such as stretch mark on mommy’s belly and how to prevent it…(ooh sorry darling, stretch mark are gross, but i’d rather have stretch mark than not having you inside me hehehe). But thankfully she’s a great doctor.. she has her own hospital !!
I am thinking I will be delivering you there…
Baby darling….I think you are such a strong and brave kid. You know why? because you’re such a good baby. I dont know that I’m having you till my almost 7 weeks (hikshiks….i am sooo sorry baby darliing), i was still working at Balikpapan backthen…but you are such a great and strong baby, you didnt tell my that you’re already there…
You gave me no morning sickness :) and even you make my appetite go crazy haha…i really want to eat anything at my first trimester (well, untill now actually). Most mommies cant eat this much because of their morning sickness, but you are sooo special, you make mommy feel healthy, you make mommy want to eat anything….anything for both of us ya? because now, i’m eating for two, for you too :)
But you know what my favorite food now? MANGOES!!! i can eat about 3 mangoes a day, even the raw ones..hehehe….i think i got it from your grandma. She said that when she’s having me (can you believe that i was just the same as you, coming from my mommy’s tummy too LOL) , she could almost eat 2 kgs mangoes a day ! :)
Yesterday, ayah and mommy went to Ace Hardware and we bought a weight scale. I wanna make sure that I keep tracking on my weight so you darling, you inside me will grow perfectly…and become a healthy child :)
Till now, i think I already gain 3.5 kgs since before i have you in my tummy. Your grandma said that I have to gain minimum 10 kgs till you’re born (or so that I read on some books).
Oh ya darling, talking about books…mommy reads sooo many books about having you inside…some of them makes mommy confused, some of them makes me scared ( many bad things that could happen to baby inside mommy’s tummy), but MOST OF THEM are very useful and it makes me more confident to raise you inside me… :) I love reading soo much, i hope someday you will be such a book freak like me too hehehe
Darling, Ayah said sorry that he could only meet us once a week :( but I hope you know how much he loves you. Do you know how he shows it? By loving mommy more than ever :)
There’s one night when I feel very itchy on my tummy —- oh this one I will have to write later —-, i need a hot water to be kept inside a plastic bag and put it on my tummy. I know Ayah is very tired since he just got back from work, but he woke up to accompany me downstair, change the water gallon, wait till the water heats up. OOh ..mommy knows he’s gonna be a great father for you darling….maybe he doesnt show it the way mommy shows it, well…let’s just say he’ll show it by his own way hehhee….if you get to know him better later, he’s such a funny person in his own way. only mommy can understand his jokes sometimes, but i think since you have half of his blood, you’ll understand also ;)
Well, talking about the itchy feeling around my tummy…ooooh it’s killing me darling,hehehe….doctor said because you’re getting bigger inside me and my skin is stretching….so that’s why i feel itchy all the time, especially at night :(
hehehe….but the good news is, when your father comes home, i can ask him to rub me all the time…it’s one of the way he communicate with you….you can feel the different right? when mommy’s rubbing you and when ayah’s rubbing you…. :)
Hoooaaaahm…..sleepy alredy baby darling? UUgh…uuuhm okay okay, let’s sleep then…nighty nite…
Be safe and sound inside mommy…. MMuuuaaach….